I've been working hard. But it seems like that hasn't been good enough. My work hasn't been that hard. But I don't feel as if I'm getting done with things in a sufficient amount of time. It's crazy that all this is happening right when I'm looking to get married. God has been blessing the planning of Christina and I's wedding. I can't help but smile at how God has supplied for us. Despite us at times.
Marriage can be a scary endeavor. There are many unknowns. I've come to realize on many levels that I am not the "man of God" that I had set myself up to be, in my own head. I have many, many faults. God loves me despite these faults. And I know Christina does the same. It's humbling. As much as I've wanted marriage since I can remember. Now that it's here. It feels like a whirlwind of emotions. Most good. Adding the work thing to it, does not help. But God is good and He provides no matter what. Even if we were down to our last dollar, God has a plan for our growth and maturating in our relationship with Him.
That's all I have. I'm going to get up early and run. Then start work, Lord-willing, with a new attitude. A God-honoring attitude. Not just talking to the talk, but with His help, walking the walk. Lord give me strength!